Anger Management

I am calling on Monday to sign up for anger managment classes. It's a 6 week program, 2 hours/wk. IT BETTER FUCKING WORK!!!! (hah that was a joke) I just hope it doesn't do something crazy like make me not love metal anymore.

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new meds. make me very tired. have to half pill. kids testing every nerve today. every one.
Grace on step. 10 minutes. my can't they just listen and do what they are told without screaming and denial?

Oh man.

Do I ever feel like a sack of crap today. Everything hurts. Neck, legs, arms, feet, head, eyes. I did not sleep well at all last night. I think I looked at the clock every hour. I am having trouble keeping my eyes open. My breathing is laboured. I have heartburn and the shits. Add that to the remorse, guilt and embarassment and it's a great day!

Welcome to Sucktown.

Population: Me.

Back in January or so, when I started this blog, it was to showcase my jouney to becoming a better person.  Well, it's August and I'm still no better. I may even be worse. I'm still a cranky SOB. I still am tired. I still have an alcohol problem. I'm not a better husband, or father. I'm just not a better person.

I could sit here and wallow in self pity but what good would that do?

Time to back it up, and start the journey over again. Before it's too late.